Wednesday, 23 May 2007

doggy days.....

She went downhill...Becky that is, and was taken back into doggy hospital yesterday. Today looks a bit brighter though....she is off her drip and food and medication staying where it should be (in her tum !!). Really thought she had had enough yesterday and was not looking forward to the prospect of what may be have been coming, she looked really old. Anyway, hopefully coming home tomorrow back to keep her mummy company and to hold the cap for me whilst I sing and dance to raise money for the growing bill!!!!!!
Past couple of weeks are finally taking a toll......lack of sleep, bad news, bad luck. Then I feel awful for saying bad luck - there are plenty of others out there who have it far worse - but in my world, just for tonight, I feel a bit fed up with it all.
Fed up of being at the bottom of the pile. There is always someone cleverer, sadder, iller (are they actually words?), more interesting, more fed up and generally just more than me.....get the message that I am fed up? Sitting on this 'puter all night does not help....reading some of the stuff that people write, sometimes you just wonder............
Missing my dog, sad about my dog, tired, feeling generally cack, headache....did I mention tired....but then again can't sleep. OH SHUT UP NOO NOO !!!!!!!!!
(can you imagine what actually goes on inside my head!!!!)
Going to bed to find all the good things in my head.........there are more than enough there to outweigh the cacky stuff I am sure........
Sorry if you are reading this and you have a genuine problem.....I do appologise !!! (does anyone actually read this?)
As my nana says 'it won't always be dark at 6'...................................................

3 comments:

Bev said...

Well I read whats going on!!! So sorry to hear things are tough for you this week..... I know how you feel... when ur tired nothing seems rational and as you say there always seems to be someone else who is worse off ..... but I always say to my friend .... if something is upsetting us however trivial it may seem in the BIG scheme of things ... if we are upset then it is just as much an issue as someone with a big problem .... simply cos it effects our life IYKWIM .... anyway enough rambling ... hope doggie is soon better and that you feel better soon aswell ... HUGS xxxx

Jane (Emnol) said...

Only just found you!! lol That's so me!! Hope everything is ok Sorry to hear about Doggie and to hear of the loss of your FIL! Hope things calm down soon!

Jane xxx

Jo said...

oh noo noo we love you and sam send you a great big wet sloppy kiss....and becky boo you know mama 2 loves you xxxx